@rwinney Awww, Rachel; Lately, I just find myself crying from you guys. I think I may be in a more fragile state in general, with this DRG not working very well, and just feel delicate. I have grown to care for people here so very much, and I actually fantasize meeting all of you in person. I think about this quite often. I have also thought about needing a break, and if I disappear a day or two or three, it might be because I need one. And yet, I do not know if I can, because I worry about everyone. Your description of what you have gone through just laid me out. I cannot describe it. Your suffering just is crazy. Words cannot captivate my feelings for you. No one tries harder, or has more spirit than you. When I say you should be teaching the Mayo Pain Classes, I am not kidding. I hate to see anything interfering with the fire inside of you. I know I am losing my fire, and am much more depressed now. Maybe it is just natural. I just love everyone here. But reading really does take a toll on me. Maybe it is a subject that needs to be discussed? We are truly intimate with one another, and it is the very closeness that I both love, but sometimes cannot endure. You are so sensitive to tell me to back off a bit. You are such a Dear One. A good woman. I am crying again. I find I cry easily, and sometimes, for almost nothing. Maybe it is just a terrible sense of loss for all of us. For what sickness has done to all of us. For what we have all lost. For what will probably never be regained. Just too much for me, sometimes. And I am sure, we all go through this. There are no answers. Just lovely people who share their souls here. What more could you ask of another human being? Love to you, Dear One. Lori Renee