Oh my dear, even the forever optimist has their days. While the Covid hasn't affected me near as much as it has you, I can clearly understand your points of view. You are a woman of the world and you've had your world taken away. I get it. I do however feel the results of a world going mad. One reason I stay alone so much is because I simply don't like the world I see out there. I haven't like it for a long time. People, places and things have changed and not necessarily for the better. The family values are gone, people are way too free with their voices anymore and care less and less how it affects others. Children are no longer seen and not heard but are more times than not, heard before you see them. The disrespect I see for human life is incredible and so very sad. To my eyes, there is so much wrong and hurtful in our world today that I personally just find it easier to avoid it by staying home and enjoying myself doing whatever it is at that moment in time. It took me years to figure out that I didn't have to be a part of that world I had come to dislike so much, I no longer felt the need to stress about things I couldn't change. I still voice my opinion but I do it online instead of in the streets. I don't associate with hurtful people that show no regard for others feeling or points of view. One of my favorite sayings is " Don't sweat the small stuff ".. If you take the time to really think about it, we as human beings tend to fret, worry and stress over things that are simply not important enough to get ourselves all worked up about. I once heard a man speaking for the importance of things, He said losing your wallet is a very big deal, stressful and very upsetting, but it doesn't have to be. There is generally nothing is your wallet that can't be replaced. Credit cards can be replaced, simply call and report them stolen or lost and that's it. Money, ok let's face it, money is is terrible to lose but it can be replaced. pictures can be replaced etc. so why make such a big deal out of it. why allow it to ruin your day, week or month or longer? Why allow it to stress you out to the point you can't think? It's not causing you to lose blood, it's not going to end your life, it's no going to cause your family any long acting negative effects. Well, that's what we all tend to do sometimes, we make mountains out of mole hills, we worry needlessly over the smallest of things. If we could only find that certain thing to take the place of the first thing, then we'd be happy, If only this hadn't happened then I'd be happy, We can blame our unhappiness on all kinds of things, or we can embrace the here and now and thank God for the little things that make us who we are to begin with. The ability to enjoy that great cup of coffee, to look out and see the sunrise or set, the ability to sleep in our own beds at night and to wake up in the morning knowing who we are and having the ability to do it all again tomorrow. Call your friends, visit your online museums, art galleries and enjoy, enjoy, enjoy. You'll be able to go out again when it's safe, this is not a forever thing, It's a temporary cure to a short term condition. Hope you feel better.