I have 4 children 5 grandchildren and 9 great grandchildren. I was the only adult for the first two generations. Now I'm happy to hear about their progression through life but I need peace and quiet no more drama. I'm content to be alone with my dog. She'll never ask me for money borrow jewelry and not return it and is overjoyed to be around me not to forget to mention that she doesn't like to get her vaccinations and oral meds don't go down without being encased in peanut butter. I panicked briefly when my oldest daughter told me she and her spouse were going to surprise me with an unannounced visit. But they won't travel because of the pandemic. Whew! I am doing what I want when I
want just as I planned. If you are not happy with yourself do something about it. Join Write Cook Read Discover live the way you want to. Or enjoy being miserable it's up to you. Open or close your eyes it's your choice. If you are depressed see a professional.
Take care of yourself.