Hi Lioness, thank you for your reply and your welcome to the group. Yes I am trying to stay active, I suppose I am my own worst critic. The fact is, I really don't mind growing older, I deserve it, I have lived a rather busy fulfilling life. I have worked hard all my life. Nursing is not an easy job but I can't imagine doing anything else, I love nursing and up until 2 months ago I was still working doing private duty simply because I loved what I was doing and just couldn't see myself not doing it. Even now I miss working but my family has been telling me for nearly 10 years to retire and I finally have. I have so much to be thankful for. I joined the US Navy in 1987-1995 and was LPO over the endocrinology clinic at Portsmouth Naval hospital. I loved being in the Navy and would have retired from it if it hadn't been for my health. I have 7 great grandchildren that are my very life. I spend as much time as possible with them but only 3 of them live close enough to visit often. Seems I always have one of them here, I love coming to grandma's house and I love having them. I think my biggest problem is not being able to do the things I want to do, due to pain or just lack of physical strength. I am not ready yet to give up doing everything for myself. Yet I know it can't be like that forever. I have been called stubborn more times than I care to count and I have to admit I guess I am. I just can't help it... I will be checking back offen to read more post. I have a feeling I am going to really like this group. Got to run, my great grandson is staying with me for awhile and he want to go to McDonalds for lunch. talk to you soon. God bless Jeanie