@grandma368
I am sorry you are going through this. Don't lose faith, but stay focused on the present. It's going to take your strength and presence of mind to handle day by day activities. Know this though, there are good treatments out there for you. If there is a cancer support group in your area, you may wish to join after you heal from the surgery where you can talk with others about what you are going through. All the best in your care.