I want to cry. I try not to watch too much tv, and when I do take time away from the things around the house, getting out in the yard and cleaning things up for spring, the house work, when I watch up dates and see the expression on peoples faces change as they are asked questions, you know they are close to crying, to breaking down, and I cry. Before the virus arrived in full force, and we are lucky right here, no cases locally, I knew it was time to,ask for help , time to ask to see a therapist again. I‘Ve been fine for ages, but life hits you In the gut and everything changes. I wasn’t fortunate to see someone before covid, I’m hanging on, good days bad days, and now this tragedy. You can’t help but care, hurt, cry. I’ve always been a person to see things from both sides. And though this man did unspeakable things, he had to have been mentally ill in so many ways. He may not have realized it and didn’t reach out for the help he obviously needed. So much happened, so many killed, houses burned , cars burned, there is no answer to why. There may be, .once authorities find his computers, phones! I grieve for all those suffering lose, I also grieve for this mans family, remaining siblings, mother , father, wife and or children.
I keep trying to rationalize things, ask myself why why. And yes, at this time of covid, sharing your grief by hugging, touching and sharing closeness Is physically is gone. Skype, Facebook , all the social media is there, but it’s not the same. Just not the same as the physical touch. I am a senior and have to say in many ways I am glad I was born before all this social media nonsense.
Could go on for ever about that. Dear God why did this have to happen? I ve met few Nova Scotians that weren’t huggers! I’m sitting here tonight with my cat and dog in a kind of fog. I guess having this venue to vent and share is one good way of helping to let out and deal with the pain and sadness. Thank you for asking and for helping place my comments in the best group. Stay safe!

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