@wandajo Im so sorry to hear about you predicament . Im sorry about the passing of your husband . Do you have any relatives that you can contact ,brothers or sisters, do you have a good relationship with your son . Would he be able to help you out ? I moved from Pa to Ca so I could help my son and wife with there baby my grandson is now 12 ,has his own friends dont see them anymore but Im fortunate to live in a senior where I have friends here . Do you have any crafts you like to do ? I like art work and adult coloring books they are so relaxing to do . Are you settled in with a new Dr? If your not maybe you should look for one he may have some ideas to help you over the depression it maybe only at this moment and wont last . Do you get out and try to make new friends ,go to shops , . I too cant have pets here but now at my age it would be hard to take care of them. Here on connect we care and try to give people what helps us with same problems . Others will chime in here that may have other ideas . Keep coming back here so we can help you .