Thank you Fiesty… I will...I've been calling the hospital and they are saying he's not there now. I'm guessing they have listed him as private to restrict our communication. He sounded so desperate for me to come there when I talked with him. When I told him that I couldn't come, he told me that i needed to get there as soon as possible. After that, he stopped answering the phone and when i call the nurses station they say they don't have anyone listed under that name. Seems like they are divorcing us honestly. I started feeling anxious about it but I decided to go to home depot and I'm now starting a flower and vegetable garden to distract myself. I've lost 20 lbs and hadn't even realized it until Thursday when I finally got on the scale. But I feel fine. I watch a lot of youtube videos for encouragement and remind myself that GOD is in control.