I actually started a book about my experiences several years ago, but decided what I did was not that important. It was a passion for me, but not everyone would see it that way and I just really feel what I did was nothing special...expect to me....my time with horses was the only passion I had, but reality sneaks in and it just was no longer fair to me to risk a horse's safety if I got caught by a sudden pain and could not react quickly enough to "save" a horse that was in trouble. If you did not do horses, this is hard to understand so I do not expect one to be able to know that it often could be life or death for both horse and rider when they hit a hard spot in their learning curve. I do not know how else to explain it. But all of us in the industry know that at some point we have to "hang up our spurs" as the saying goes.

And my Mother was in the throes of ALZ and it was my turn to start helping with her care. She helped me so much throughout my life. So spent a little over three years caring for her with my sisters before we knew she needed a residential situation as we were not professionals and she got to the point that she needed that level of care.

So here we are....life is what it is...wish I had more enthusiasm but have not been able to muster it just yet. and I get scared when my mind goes to dark places, hence being here is a blessing from all of you who listen.

Thank you.