Thank you for revealing your most intimate thoughts about your struggles and thoughts about a sense of futility and hopelessness. Nonetheless, I am truly grateful to read about your tenacity to go to work in order to eak out an existence. You have given me comfort and hope because you are trying to live. Please don't stop persevering and keep sharing your struggles and victories, no matter how small.
By the way, there is an "it" greater than me who listens to me and I feel hopeful and I persevere. Please keep sharing your thoughts and struggles. It is encouraging to read.