Update: I‘m doing very very poorly. The day I went desperately to that neurologist went very wrong. She was very insensitive and threw at me the psychiatric diagnosis. One week on and I started having pain all over my body and muscle spastisticity all over my body. My visit to my original neurologist is due in 2 days, but I‘ll go to her tomorrow, because I feel horrible physically and mentally(as if I drank 50 coffees at once). The past 3 days and nights were complete hell. It’s 4 am right now. Pain in my chest muscle fibers burning right now.I’d pace around the room to relieve that agitation but using my muscles triggers my spasms and pain. I have great hope that she will take me seriously. I was previously afraid to insist how bad I feel, because I respected her and I was afraid to take the psychiatric diagnosis from her too. Maybe it was wrong, she wouldn’t have done that, but I‘m traumatized from the doctor visits that went wrong. It‘s horrible to feel like your body is shutting down and nobody believes you and thinks you are crazy. It’s been very traumatic for me and for my mother as well. She believes me. But she can’t do anything, just watching me suffer and comforting me. All I need from you is a hug. Please like this post and give me a hug through that. I’m feeling horribly and my mother can’t hug me because this night I have to let her sleep, she will drive a long distance tomorrow.

Edit: When will women be believed when they are sick? If I was a man maybe... maybe I wouldn’t have been labeled as “anxious” “depressed” “crazy”. I would have gotten a diagnosis sooner. It’s so unfair. It’s so unfair for both men and women who go through that, but women are usually the victims. Because “hysteria” mentality still affects our collective conscience. That has to change once and for all :(( I hope my message arrives somewhere and it is able to change at least a bit, someone’s mentality and mistakes.