I hear you and know how lucky I am to have a PCP who tusts me and prescribes an opiod.It is the only thing that helps my pain and allows me to function. And even that is not 100%...it's in addition to Lyrica, and now Nortriptyline. The nights when I have maxed my allowed number of hydrocodone and can't sleep from pain, I turn to an extra strength THC pill. Absolutely crazy.