Karen it helps me knowing I am not alone as well. I find courage when I am validated by others. Sometimes I need to be with my own kind, those that get it. I went to lunch with an old friend and she was ranting about how upset she was. She couldn’t find a pair of shoes to match her new dress. I listened to hear for a while until it made me nauseous. She can’t find a pair of shoes to match a dress and I will be facing another set of scans and blood work and doctor appointments. Quite a contrast. I don’t blame her for anything. She knows about my diagnosis she just doesn’t get it. People like that I must avoid. I can’t relate to her anymore. When you go through a life changing event in life you are changed forever. I have lost friends because of my cancer but that is ok. I don’t have the patience anymore for some people. I have a circle of friends who understand. I find comfort in them. This site also provides a good measure of validation I don’t always receive. Karen you and I are kindred souls. I wish you the best! I will think of you when I can’t sleep. I am sure there are more of us out there! We are not alone!