I understand what you are saying since I have heard the same thing from from a lot of people who feel this way. Yes doctors are only human and they make mistakes I know I have. Mistakes are things done by accident not on purpose and they are forgive able. I an accept that and move on. This is not the case here. This was on purpose and since this sort thing happened to thousands of people, it is unforgivable. Since you don’t know me other than these short emails, I have lived a life time of this sort of thing happening. I use to talk to a very good psychologist, who felt as you seem to until she heard what I have been thru in my life. We have ended that relationship after seeing and talking to her since 1996. She told me that she has a file draw filled with my stories of what people have done to me. She is still amazed that I am still alive. One of the odd things about ending up with Central Sensitization Syndrome and I also read about this while doing my research, is that people who are affiliated with this have had a history of crappy things done to them. I won’t bore you with that and it is too personal but I will relate something that is also rare to happen. I was award in a worker’s compensation case, a 100% compensation award. I use to work for one of the largest telephone companies in the U.S. I use to work in some very bad areas where there were a lot of gangs and violence and drugs. This company decided that it was OK to have us go there alone anytime day or night. I was in a lot of fights with the people there and witnessed the same things that only the police see but I got to enjoy that entertainment by myself. The police in those areas never showed up by themselves and they had guns. Out of the 25 other guys who use to work out of the same place where I was, 15 of them left do PTSD. No one will ever hear about it as this company has been very good at keeping what they quite. My lawyer told me after my case was settled that he was tired and disgusted with all the people that have come through his court with the same sort of complaint against that company. This happened just before my operation and my experiences with doctors and the healthcare system. I was compensated sort of in this matter but that didn’t last long since my case settled in 2002 and the worker compensation laws changed in California in 2005. I had to give up the good medical professionals I was seeing use only this new MP list that insurance companies now were aloud to use. They were really bad doctors. Maybe you can tell by this that I see the world differently than you. Again I have had a lifetime of this sort of thing happening. I am also human and have feelings like everyone else. In respect to going to someone for help medically and they do pretty much take the same attitude towards you and pull the same sort of things, it is really easy to recognize. As far as my attitude and outlook on life, well I still have my family who care about me and I have five grandchildren who I have fun with. I enjoy that and the time I have with them. And then there are the alone times and this is the hardest for me to deal with. I am in a lot of pain all the time, physically and mentally. Family can’t be with me 24 hour a day and I don’t expect that.. They have their own lives to live. I am older and that is a problem. I find those words from a song I heard a long time ago, “ I am a rock I am an island” which you might recognize are very true. I have become those words. Something to think about when dealing with people and giving advice on how they should feel. I don’t give advice on how to live your life or how to survive in this world. I am not a doctor or a psychologist.