I hear ya Jim. I’m in the same boat minus the pain meds. It’s all getting scary and leaving those of us who suffer with few choices. I’m starting the tapering process as I don’t want to be forced into a taper. That for me would me much worse. I’m a nervous wreck just thinking about the future. I’m too old for all this. My doctor should have suggested tapering years and years ago. He shouldn’t have waited until I was 67. I’ve switched doctors. I’ll never forgive my previous doctor for leaving me on Xanax so long and telling me it was just fine. My internist was all on board too.