@januaryjane I am sorry you are going through this depression now. The loss of a pet and your grandma is enough to cause depression. Then the short days of winter can make it worse. I understand as I have gone through it. It is possible to get to a better life. You mentioned therapy. Have you called your therapist to let them know how you are doing? Do you have any friends or relatives you can call? Thank you for reaching out to us. Keep us informed of how you are doing.

I am so sorry you aren’t feeling well. It sounds like you are dealing with a lot lately. I have lost some beloved pets. I always have such a connection with my pets, They provide unconditional love and companionship. It is almost like or worse than loosing a family member because they are so dependent on us. Maybe you will consider getting another when you are ready. Grief takes time to heal but I want you to know there is hope just allow yourself some time. Depression can make us feel tired and ill. Just yesterday I said to my husband, I think I need to go to the doctor because I feel so lousy. I went for a walk and came home exhausted. Being winter, does not help. It is hard for me to tell if I have something else wrong or if it’s my depression but depression is an illness so either way I am not in a good place right now. Reaching out for help is hard for me to do also but you are not alone. I personally struggle with depression and anxiety even on meds. But there are always better days for me. Sorry for my rambling, I just want you to know you are not alone and there is hope. Trying to talk to an understanding person can help. Take care and say to yourself, “it Is ok to feel this way because of everything going on in my life, but I am going to be ok”.

@januaryjane What would help ease the loneliness? For each of us, it is different. Going to a concert, or a movie, or to a social club setting, a potluck, meeting with a like-minded group of some sort [hobby, interest, religious], volunteering somewhere that you feel comfortable, even simply sitting in a coffee shop doing a craft like knitting or artwork. Is there someone you can call and ask over? Have you contacted your mental health professional to ask for a need-now appointment? Please do not wait until you feel worse, because you might want to just stagnate and not get any assistance. We are glad you reached out here, and want you to let us know what you decided to do!
Ginger