Thank you Lisa. The only remedy available to me is Tylenol with Codeine (T1's and T3's) , and I made use of them yesterday. They do help, but I was taking so many of them every day prior to the Gabapentin and I don't want to get back on that wheel again. I also removed myself from the living room when they brought my stepfather home from the hospital. They have a separate sitting room, so I made myself at home there. Believe me - even though it is mere feet away it is a much more peaceful room.

My mother and I had a good calm, healthy talk (our first in 4 days) last night - and during that conversation she admitted that she 'can't feel anything'. I told her I was not surprised because she has so much going on, and I suspect that after her husband dies she will grieve them both. I also told her that it appears she really does not need me to support her right now, but I DO need the time to grieve my brother and I cannot do it here. She understood that. So thankfully we will part on good terms with a better understanding of each other's needs.

The question is: Will going home be enough to sooth the nerves in my feet? I will let you know...