@karama . Goodness, I will confess that when you wrote the words "move on" in your post, I got an awful feeling. How many times have we heard people who have NOT suffered loss say that to we who are grieving? And even people who have lost loved ones say those dreadful words. There is no "moving on", in my humble opinion. There is, however, a form of "moving FORWARD " . I think all of us here on this particular forum are trying to take those tiny baby steps forward. There is no time table for grief. There might be a "new normal", although I haven't found that for myself. Many people have, however, but I imagine that takes an interminable amount of time. Please accept my virtual prayers for your healing.