I feel like I could have written that. Felt it right fit in the feels!!! Our first retrieval gave us only 4 embryos that didn’t make it to blast, so none were frozen and the two cleavage-stage we transferred were unsuccessful. Our second retrieval we were so excited about because they got 21 eggs, 8 made it to embryo. I thought it was worth all the pain that round caused me. Then only one made it to blast and that was a punch to the gut. Then genetic testing came back as “highly recommend not to transfer” and it was a second blow. I feel like all we get is bad news. It’s hard not to start taking it personally, to not question everything you thought you knew. We will do another retrieval but it’s getting more difficult to stay positive and not feel like we have a black cloud over us all the time.