@nobody When my dad passed in 2012, whom i was close to, a friend told me "There is healing in salt water. The ocean, sweat, and tears." I hope this eases your mind some.
Ginger

@nobody. I’m glad you were finally able to cry. I know that many feel that crying is a weakness, but I find that it can be a first step in getting better. And you’ve reached out to MayoClinicConnect—that’s another big step. Your not feeling that you have to be strong all the time and letting yourself cry, helps others to see that they, too, can put aside stoicism and ask for help. Thank you for helping. Would you like to share some positive memories of your husband and sons? We’d like to listen