@jmhd I love that you have written about sin and suicide. I think this topic needs to be here. It is so real, and I bet, it is on many peoples' minds. I have thought of suicide, because I suffer. I have also thought about states in which euthanasia is legal. But then I think about my grandson's crystal blue eyes, my odd husband, (I love him anyway), and the things that bring a smile. I walk a thin rope, most of the time. I am sad. I love dearly. I weep with pain. I get high a lot. I claim the new, odd, me. I claim the CBD and Kratom, that usually make my life fairly livable. But thoughts of ending it, do lurk in sultry shadows. I am human. Lori Renee