@merpreb , I have relaxed my expectations of myself, while always trying to do my best, though sometimes I catch myself feeling really down over perceived "failure". This has been a very healthy development for me, and it's only been in the last few years that it has come to pass in my reactions to tasks. I think that I learned this perfectionism as a result of finding that while I could do well in school I could garner praise from teachers and from my parents (if the scorn of most of my peers). I pushed myself in this way to bolster my self-esteem of a few people, and that kept me going through decades of depressive states and low self-esteem.