@earscan The fact that you’re recovering is wonderful news. How long ago was your treatment? From personal experience, going through a cancer journey is a singular experience. We can have the most amazing caregivers and friends who are with us every step of the way. They’re well meaning and devoted. But unless someone has gone through the experience themselves they can’t feel the depth of the emotional toll. You are so right about mental healing taking much longer than our bodies did to recover.

It’s not uncommon for us to feel a sense of PTSD. My recovery has gone well, but it was about 16 months later when the gravity of my situation, what I accomplished and survived really hit home. I never realized I had this little “dark shadow of doubt” lurking over my shoulder. It was vague and internal. Facing that triggered a release. It’s now gone! I feel released, energized and back to my old self.
I also found art to be very healing. It gave me momentary periods of escape. Being so focused on what I was doing, allowed for incremental healing to go on in areas of my brain that welcomed the distraction. Do you have any hobbies or outside interests?

From my personal perspective you’re doing everything right. Keeping in touch with friends and family really helps. Though Covid has dealt us a nasty setback in that area. Does your cancer center have any local support groups you could attend? I’m happy you’ve joined us on Mayo Connect. There are so many wonderful people in this community who all work together to assist each other.

Hugs, Lori.