@minneapolis123 i just read your post from an hour ago. ECT has changed since you had it in 2004. I had it in 2015. I didn't notice side effects but everyone is different of course. I had acupuncture and every other non-medical method that ever appeared on the mental health care scene. Meds often don't work alone and I find that a combination of chemical and non-chemical plus A GOOD THERAPIST WHICH IS HARD TO FIND IN SOME AREAS OF THE COUNTRY...can work well together. I'm thinking that visiting the mayo clinic is the next best step cause they have excellent practitioners and doctors who can look at your entire body and mind and spirit. I hear you about your son. I am there with you. I see the awful visions of his suicide daily. So keep connecting with all of us who understand and keep us informed as we do tend to get concerned if we don't hear from each other. Blessings.