Odette, Thank you for your very thoughtful reply.

Like you, I'm a scientist (experimental psychology) although not in medicine or the biological sciences. The information about cancer is all new to me but as a scientist I want to know it all, and each question leads to another question Also like you, I cannot file the information away as some of the people I know have done. I had and have a healthy lifestyle and no history of gynecological cancers in my first degree relatives. Genetic testing of the tumor was negative. I don't have children but I do have a niece whose mother (my sister-in-law) died from from a digestive disease cancer two years after diagnosis of endometrial cancer. I don't know if my sister-in-law had genetic testing but I'm trying to figure out to get my niece who is only 30-years-old to follow up on her own health.

When I read the report on the positive peritoneal washings, I did a search on PubMed for peer-reviewed literature. Then, my husband who I mentioned is a pathologist and I talked about what we both read. I understand research design and statistics from my doctoral training. For many years, I did not know what frozen sections were when he was "I'm on frozen sections today" or what he did in tumor board. Now I do and I keep asking questions. How do you keep your focus on your own recovery and process your own emotions vs. the objective distance you have in your own work as a scientist? Will we continue to make ourselves even more anxious with our worrisome minds and questions?

Thank you for sharing on this thread, and I wish you good health and that you stay well.