I also fear recurrence. I feel like if my immune system didn’t destroy the cancer cells the first time, how can I trust that immune system to catch it and fight it off when rears it’s ugly head again. It’s always in the back of my mind. Most people who have not experienced a life treating illness do not understand, even my family sometimes think I’m “silly” to be fearful. Perhaps they are just trying to help me feel better by ‘dismissing’ my feelings of the chances of recurrence. I’m so grateful for this web site to connect to other women who experience many of those same feelings.