so very sorry for your loss. I have had a lot of loss in the last 8 months and it has not gotten easier. I wish I could tell you it has an end..but unfortunately,, I cannot tell you that. They say we all grieve in our own way and for however long we need... no set limit. So, take ALL the time you need and do what you have to do. Just one day at a time. The memories can be painful but happy. Keep talking to people. Find a grief support group later ( not now). The ONLY thing I can think of that might help you is to move ( temporarily) to where you do have friends and family for the rest of the summer. You WILL need a support group of something.. relatives, friends, therapists, support group.... anything... And keep talking. Keep reaching out. I wish you all my energy I have left to help get you thru this. Hugs to you and your family.