Blessings. I am responding to tell you that my adult son died a traumatic death. I saw a grief counselor who specializes in helping parents and families deal with unexpected death. The other thing I did was talk to people who have experienced the death of a child. These two things have saved my life, literally. This is a safe place and you will find that that, somehow, hope will peak through for a tiny second through your years. By hope, I mean that you will make it through the morning. And then the afternoon. And quite possibly the whole day. A parent's tears do not ever go away but hold tight to that wispy thread of hope. We are here for you .