I discovered a place where a person can go to study for free and learn about a wide array of subjects including self improvement to boost self esteem and organise ones thoughts. Its the website of Allison.com. I use to have negative thoughts and dillutions.During one of the courses I was taking the instructer recommended some books to read. One was the erronous zone by Wayne Dyer and another is called you can be happy no matter what.I just emersed myself in some of those courses and I think I kind of re programmed my brain.All I know is I no longer have the brain pounding negative thoughts anymore. Some days as soon as I wake up the radio is on NPR and that keeps the voices at bay long enough for me to do what I need to do to get to my chair in the tv room and laptop. Im not confined to my chair its just thats where I like to sit in the morning.After a while I get up and move around. Ive been doing so well I fear that it will all come back one day and I dont know if I will be able to deal with it like I did before.