Hi @pepsi97, you'll notice that I moved your message to this existing discussion about General Anxiety Disorder (GAD). i did this so you can connect with other members like @guener @trellg132 @gingerw @parus @ainsleigh @jh31251 @johnhans @thankful @mostlybill, to name a few.

You pose such an interesting conundrum. You love the massages and they calm you down, but before the massage worry about falling asleep and not waking up consumes you. When your thoughts start to dwell on the worry are you able to visualize the calm and positive after effects of the massage instead? Can you perhaps focus on what you will do after the massage? Maybe you could have a plan for after the massage to look forward to. Might that help?