@patrick7, thank you for responding. I so understand this kind of anxiety and depression. I have two granddaughters, 18 and 21. They were abused by their father and then had to deal with his suicide. I felt so helpless. I was not allowed in the home for years. My daughter has severe PTSD, the 21-year-old has OCD and was hospitalized for 6 months after his death. The 18-year-old has social anxiety and has attempted suicide herself. Although it is better for me not to be involved in their lives, there is a huge hole in my heart. If only..........if only.........my very best thoughts for you and your grandchildren. I understand. Chris