Wow. I guess I hadn't thought of it like that. You could certainly be right. I think more than anything I am caught up in a panic disorder that literally comes on out of nowhere and when it does I'm literally paralyzed. And I mean from out of the most unexpected places and situations. Heart begins to race and I am literally frozen in fear. I do know that I cannot continue in the state I'm in though. Perhaps I will inquire with my doctor about one of the meds that controls both panic and depression but I cannot take one that causes weight gain! I did that once before and although I FELT better I literally gained 30lbs in less than 3mo and didn't see it coming. I've worked too hard to get the weight off and keeping it off. I think you might've just given me that lil nudge I've needed for too long about medication to help me. Thank you!