@maw258 I can understand what you are going through. I have had depression all of my life. I took tranquilizers in my teens and went on antidepressants in my 40s. I am so glad for them. Side effects of them are different for different people. Just because some people have problems does not mean you will. Have antidepressants been suggested to you by a doctor? Has a doctor told you that you have depression?