I agree, it is a little worrisome, not knowing what the cause of my SSHL was. But it may have been "stupid" in the sense that autoimmune/stress are related and I let myself get into the position of feeling a lot of work stress at that time. I try to keep balance and "live healthy" - not easy! I had very much a grief reaction at first, and that has gotten better with time. So yes, I thought about it a LOT in the beginning (especially since you are still having severe tinnitus and possibly other symptoms, that may resolve to some degree). It is good you are seeing a counselor to help you get through the acute period. The main impact on my life now is that it is difficult for me to hear in noisy situations. Whereas I can manage this more in my personal life, I have business/ client meetings where I cannot control the environment, and they are fairly frustrating and exhausting. I am lucky that I am in health care and have a great client so there is some understanding/patience. Though of course I would prefer just to be able to enjoy the conversation! But I try to dwell on the positive - which is pretty much my nature. I hope that - with time - you will be able to get to find peace, too.