Hi Leonard. Learned trait - environment with mom locked in room ( darkened due to migraines)- severe) and no real interaction except ad friendship based. Never confided about bullying and other issues. My parents told me stuff like their friends did not want their kids playing with me and marriage issues - etc . Mom sparked/ dad spanked . I have trust issues. - do not let people close. My grandfather let my mom know he did not like her- he was great with me though. Lots of bad family issues. My brother was expected to go to college and do well. Honor student - and was at George Washington university - drop out I st semester and stayed at job since 1971-2018. I was not expected to thrive in college but did .San Francisco state in psy- 1978 . My brother disassociated from me in 1997 after our father died- saw each other once or twice a year. He is shallow but has a good marriage with his guy -30 year plus .
Depression is chemical as well. I know I fight everyday even with so called good days
I feel the imbalance in me. Severe depressive