I have just left or stop going before ....I can feel my blood pressure rising and my teeth getting clenched and I go out the door fast. In past experiences with this I just stay there until I attack people. I have only done that at work. I’m retired and won’t work. I have never hit my wife or family.
I went into emergency when I had suicidal feelings and sat in front of 3 medical people and I could not say anything to them.. I got extremely angry but sat there in my chair and pounded my knees , etc.
Whenever I feel this way I can walk away from the narcissistic event and calm down. It’s my Dad looking at me and slapping my face. It’s him telling me I must be perfect but I can’t be perfect.