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Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety.
Depression & Anxiety | Last Active: Nov 7, 2022 | Replies (623)Comment receiving replies
My sister worked at regions hospital (St Paul, mn)for mental health and understands me but she has Also suggested I search out someone independent of our family to talk to. I have tried male psychiatric help and for 2 meetings have wanted to kill them. I have had suicidal thoughts in New Mexico riding with friends and extreme anger when visiting the hospital with 3 medical staff people. I look back at those events and realized I had an anxiety attack every time. I’m retired 7 years and had 3 anxiety attacks at work the last 2 years I was working.
Why do psychiatrists try to make me angry... I don’t want to hurt them and wouldn’t realize I was hurting them till after.
My sister says I should work with a women and keep in touch with my sister weekly. I have forgiven my narcissistic Dad. Something is missing in my therapy that needs to be found. I know that I witnessed him hurting my Mom when I was 10 years old and other incidents but when I hear certain narcissistic selfish language i go to a dark place.
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@stsopoci It sounds like your sister is a good support for you but family (informal support) is only a piece of getting the answers (treatment) you need.
You said that, "psychiatrists try to make" you angry and that you, "don’t want to hurt them and wouldn’t realize" you were hurting them until after.
As Ginger mentioned, do you think you are triggered by the psychiatrists? I'd also like clarification regarding "hurting" someone. Did you "hurt" the psychiatrist?
It's important that everyone is safe and this includes you too. May I ask how you can keep yourself and others safe?
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I appreciate the openness and authenticity in your post. Just wondering, if most (or all) of those anxiety attacks occurred while you were in the presence of men? If so, this may be an area to work on with a therapist (as your sister suggested, perhaps a female therapist).
This is just a suggestion, but while you may have forgiven your dad the memories will never be gone completely. Could it be that your anxiety reactions to these men might instead be a reaction to your dad? Perhaps you need to learn to deal with those memories in a more healthy way.
I'm not a mental health professional, so these are just suggestions from someone who has walked a recovery road.