@nanners012910- Good morning and I'm glad that you found our site. I understand your frustration in finding the right drugs for your depression. I have PTSD and have also gone through many trials before I found the right one. I am one Zoloft and Brupropion and CBD oil. I also exercise and I have to tell you that was a game changer for me when I started back exercising. I know that when you are really down, down ,down it's the last thing you want to do but it's also the best thing to do. Can you grab a friend who will be tough, but gentle with you to help with this process?
https://www.nbcnews.com/health/health-news/caution-urged-over-use-fast-acting-version-ketamine-depression-n1016176
When I see Miracle Drug every red flag in my vicinity goes to full alert. There are no miracle medicines, they either work or they don't. There is no divine power that selects which one is right for you and which aren't based on your experiences with it.
All are addictive and will take a lot of slow work to get off them. You probably have experienced this. I know that if I decide not to take mine anymore my depression will return so I have no plans on ever stopping.
But some antidepressants are more dangerous than others and I would classify Ketamine as one to be very very careful of. It's the same type of drug that Michael Jackson died from.
https://www.nbcnews.com/health/health-news/caution-urged-over-use-fast-acting-version-ketamine-depression-n1016176
Have you been exercising, being careful to eat as cleanly as possible and sleeping well?