I am 41 and was born 3 months too early. I have been an Honor student, an athlete and a retired Army soldier. Two years ago I began to have all kinds of medical issues that I could not explain not even with all the research I have done. Now, it seems I have had medical conditions that made me physically unable to even join the military; however, I joined and I was pretty good at my job until all the mtbis(concussions) started to pile up. Last year, after a Veteran's Day celebration, it was like an explosion went off in my head. Memories came flooding back and I became irate. Today, I am going through testing to check my heart after suffering blackout after blackout and then seizure after seizure despite taking prescribed meds. I am so scared of what the docs may find but the truth is, I pretty much know what they are going to tell me. I just want to know; even though I know I should be grateful and not angry, how do I keep from losing my cool when so many of my medical conditions might have been prevented?