@amberheilman I wanted to reach out and tell you that I'm sorry about your dad, and that you will find support here. John Bishop is a great resource on Neuropathy. Right now, you are being affected by the stress from grief, so the best thing is to take care of yourself as best you can. You might want to get a physical therapy evaluation when you're ready to see if they can help with your pain. Sometimes neuropathy is a physical problem that physical therapy can help. Here is a discussion all about myofasial release therapy, and it has helped me a lot. https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/myofascial-release-therapy-mfr-for-treating-compression-and-pain/ You can find a provider on the MFR website.

I took care of my elderly dad with end stage heart disease, and I too worried about inheriting that. The worst thing I could do would be to stress myself into believing that I would follow the same path. I've made the best choices I can, and worked at learning to control and reduce stress, because that can cause high blood pressure and heart problems, and stress is huge factor in a lot of diseases. You don't have to stay positive right now for everyone else. Take the time you need to process and accept these changes. Your mom is grieving too, but in a different way and also trying to be strong. You are lucky to have a supportive husband. He might look at this all differently, and it might not be the same way that you view your health. I know my husband has always felt like he wished he could do more for me when I was recovering from surgery or an illness. It sounds like you are the one who is always there as a caregiver for everyone else, and maybe that it what is hard now, because you are having trouble being in that role. It's your turn now. It is hard sometimes to accept help and not see it as a negative thing for someone else, but the help is given sincerely. You will always have those conversations with your dad, and you can remember them when you need his comfort.