@swartzki, @jager5210, @birdierobin -- I have found my mental state in a not so happy place many times. In some instances it is very difficult to deal with. One of the things that helps me is to try and change what I'm thinking about and turn it into something positive (easier said than done sometimes!). I found a great site by Dr. Amit Sood - The Resilient Option (https://www.resilientoption.com/) that has a lot of different topics, videos and techniques to help you help yourself. I had the opportunity to hear Dr. Sood speak a few years back and he is really good at explaining the way the brain works. Here is one of my favorite short videos:

Love yourself, like your pet does -- https://www.resilientoption.com/blog/194638/love-yourself-like-your-pet-does

More are available on his blog here: https://www.resilientoption.com/blog

Hoping for strengh and peace for all of us...