Unfortunately, I am still working. I have no choice. My marriage is dissolving as well,but he will take half of my retirement when he goes so I have avoided divorce thus far. He has no assets (or at least hides them),nor has he contributed much to the marriage. He even stole insurance checks totaling 18 K made out to me for the repairs of my home after a hurricane. I was in intensive care when he did this. I had to pay for a new roof out of savings because he spent the money before I even knew it was there. I have also lost almost all of my hair to the neuropathy. My anxiety is at new heights. Sleep is definitely an issue. I too love the outdoors. I'm still getting on my horse when I feel like it. I have two grandchildren that keep me wanting to be here. Sometimes the anxiety is so horrible, I lose sight of them too. I'm glad your pain is under control presently. Thanks for responding.