I went to my first nutritionist appointment 2 days ago. I was sitting next to some lady who was seeing a different doctor for a completely different issue. We began chatting and when I said I was there to get help gaining weight she basically laughed in my face. She said and I quote "Seriously, there are people out there who are obese and struggling, whom have real health issues and can't lose weight. You're here to gain . Eat more?" If I weren't emotionally drained at that moment there would have been a cat fight.

I think one of the worst parts of this is the lack of sleep. This country is so concerned with the so called opioid epedemic danger from people who abuse, that people like us are suffering the consequences. The real danger is me running around in pain with no sleep and then getting in my car and driving. My parents, mom 76 and dad 81 both have serious problems. My father can't walk anymore without falling down half the time and my mother's spine is basically collapsed. They have to jump through hoops to get their pain medication. They were told that they weren't even allowed to be on the same pain meds. No household can have more than one person taking the same drug.

I too shall share advice on things I've tried and will try along the way. And if there's anybody out there who lives in the NY vacinity, I would love a face to face, if possible. There's just so much sharing I can do with people whom can sympathize but not empathize, and truly, I know deep down they really don't want to talk about it. No judgment just a fact.