@river19- Good morning and welcome to Connect. I'm so glad that mindfulness and mediation work for you. I tried TM years ago but could never sit still long enough for it work. lol. I'm not sure I think that I understand what you mean by your feelings don't have to mean anything. But when you are wrapped up tight in them they certainly influence how your feel and react. I think that most of us in this group accept our feelings as reality but have a hard time releasing them. Mediation can be excellent for that. Thank you for sharing your story. How long have you been meditating? Are you taking any additional meds?