@kamama94 First I want to let you know that I am praying for you. Second, I am enjoying reading about your relationship with your surgeon. I taught school for 18 years. Six years ago when I was going through chemo, the nurse standing there with a needle in her hand getting ready to put poison in my body had been one of my students. I was hoping that I did a good job of teaching her and that she didn't hold any grudges. She too was a peach.