@kamama94, @rosemarya. Rather agree with Rosemarya. If I were to be suddenly faced with dialysis, I should think I would feel a lot more apprehensive about what all is entailed in the prep, procedures, whatever, not to mention not knowing the cause for sure. I remember being given a warning by the radiologist that the biopsy I was about to undergo (I was in front of the CT scanner) was likely to cause all kinds of terrible, horrible problems, including immediate hospitalization, excessive bleeding, and who knows what else. Absolute panic with no one to ask - my nephew was a jerk and I did have sarcoma cancer. Anyhow, the days that followed were not good, so I understand how you feel. In the next couple of days, please be kind to yourself in any way possible, and accept any and all offers of help, hear? It is very hard for me to not "do it myself" but sometimes necessary, I think.