Yes, of course, I understand the stress I put on myself. I lived a stressful, mentally abusive marriage for 50 years and have spent the past 12 years learning to enjoy life and people as I have said many times, "people are all I've got!" I am trying to avoid being a recluse to survive. The exercise that works well for me is water aerobics but I am incontinent and that is an embarrassing problem in the water.
I rehabbed my first knee replacement well in the water and would go back if I can find someone who would go with me and help me so I don't slip and fall, as well as get the bathing suit off in time. I have been in some pretty bad exercise programs in nursing homes. I can afford the YMCA if I have a buddy with me. I may eventually hire a caregiver.
Thanks for reminding me that I should appreciate my successes. I don't give myself enough credit because my husband was not supportive and kept saying I would die before him etc. Some days I tell myself, "I won!" He has been gone 12 years. I live well now.