You have a right to be angry, so don't apologize. You're stating facts in an appropriate manner, which is what my counselor would say. I am a medical professional, although not practicing and I'm so angry right now with my own issues and fighting for my health/lack of. I hope you find relief and a quality of life that you've not had before. Read about NAD therapy and it's benefits. I don't know if you're a candidate, but it can open up channels and pathways that have gone awry, which I am certain you have with this length of time and pain. Also, look into infrared sauna. It has many wonderful pain and healing benefits. Diet and gut microbiome health are also really important factors. There is much on the internet about it. About 70% of our immune system is in our gut…. Best wishes to you!