Hello, I am extremely depressed. I can not tolerate the pain anymore. Only time I leave my home is to see a dr.. Adding to that is the pain of PTSD. I think it started when I was born?? Family told me I cried all the time. Immediate family, always told me what I was thinking, "if people really knew you" "there is something wrong with you" and more. My face was all I had to hold on to. No could take that from me. As long as people looked at me, complimented me, told me how pretty I was or even more than that. well, I have struggled all my life and than this happened to me. FROM A DOCTOR. Between the pain, unwanted memories that come out of know where I think about that dr. someone else took my body from me. Nothing helps me relax except people, socializing is hard, where do I lay down?? Do I socialize in my bedroom? I don't like the way new opiates are making me feel at all. I take CBD OIL, Capsule it doesn't work since I became worse. I am so afraid to die but a part of me is already dead. No one wants to treat me because my case is so complexed and caused by medical profession to many who have the same as I. When I was younger all dreams I had were stollen.