I am sorry that you feel disfigured but at least you are alive. I understand how frustrating it can be. My chondrosarcoma has made my back and shoulders look like a carved pumpkin. Most of my right breast is gone. The thing is that if you stay positive and thankful, your true beauty shines through. That is what people will see. Plus you can choose the nose you want to have😊
I am 100% positive that your family and friends are glad you are still with them. As I always say, find the blessing in each day. God has you here for a reason and it isn’t just to go through cancer. God bless you and let your beautiful smile shine through.